Today, out of boredom, I re-read every single article I've written before. Its awesome, I mean the amount of misspell or typo mistake I've made. And I won't even try to fix them. Because that means the anger that was captured perfectly in the article will be too polished out, too smooth, like Bond-tastically good.
I do apologize for all the bad word that seems to be flying out from every single corner of this blog. Those are the words that adequetely convery my feelings and thoughts. I recall someone telling me my blog looked like some emo kid who's main purpose is to seek more viewership, get attention. To bad for that person, my blog-statistic shows no grow at all. So my dairy is still my dairy, not some fucking celebrity-news site. Perhaps making it to the frontpage of newspaper might change that but nevermind.
You see, its been so long I didn't type anything properly, by typing properly I mean type very fast, as if I'm speaking right now, now. I like the feeling that my finger is flying across the keyboard, if only the keys are alittle more tactile I would have more satisfaction from hammering them.
Anyway, rereading the MY FIRST CRUSH did put the smile back to me, because instead of commiting those memory inside my mind I put them in words. I seem to lack seriousness in doing things, perhaps thats why I'm so screw up. Do me a favour and stay in college or University. Sitting in front of your PC, having been updated by latest news, life feels empty, lucky for me I have a silent dad who love to read books and place them in strategic location whereby I will be bored out of my mind and have nothing to do but to read the book he put there. Thaks Dad.
I'm looking for job now. Why? Because staying at home studying just isn't working out the way I'm hoping it would. See, if you can't support yourself, you got no income and you stay at home all day everyday, people think you're an ass, a leech. Well I'm not a leech, and better to admit mistake than walking the path of fools, I looked for a job, a properjob. Me, a person without a proper college diploma or degree, can find a job. Well I interviewed, and people seems to like me.
Anyway, I realize how important money was than ever before. People don't say it, but if you can't be financially independant, you're a tool. Although I have every intention not to work for the rest of my life, I have no choice now. And frankly going out to gain experience, get scolded by people is good in the long run. Makes you realize that being young means take the fucking jab to your gut, stay low, save up money and experience, and launch full force when oppotunity arise.
I'm not gonna pretend to be like some fucking sage. No, my own Gaming class conducted by myself didn;t work out. I lose to myself. Now I'll go find a proper job, earn a living, save up money, and try to come back with a much clearer head. I even think of how I'm gonna go for movie every week or so depending if there's new movie to watch, be a film critic.
Or buy computer/video games and review them, because it seems that I like them very much. Or maybe I can buy TV series DVDs, or tose Limited Edition stuff to review, to tell you which is worth it to buy, and if I don't intend to keep you you can have it, for a price of course.
But I can't do all this when I have no money at all, see the point? Being financially independant have its perks. I might even consider putting up a community vote. For things like movie, if you're wondering whether a particular movie / game is good enough, you can request that I go watch it / play it, and then review it. And the difference is, since my blog/website is not sponsored by the movie maker and game maker, I can write without being sympathetic to their cause, or in another word, UNBIAS.
I'm serious, if enough of you folks, say 10-20 people pool together and vote on a particular title of movie or game you want to know whether good enough, then I'll see if I have free time. I'd be happy to do it, but if I think no one wants to know about it, then I won't do it, save your time and ultimately my time and money. Think of it as community service. So all you need to do is gather your friends, ask them, write down what you want to know and I'll be happy to assist if time allows me to do so. Deal?
For movies maybe one or two movies a month, and one video game per month, thats what I'm thinking. Obviously you people can request for movies, butI'm not gonna waste my money if there's only one person who wants to know about something.
This is great, for you I mean. You get info's for free, and from my mouth. Sure I wasn;t some big critic or reviewer, but at least you'll have some truthful info(no offense to people who's in this business) at no cost, other thatn your monthly internet bill.
So whadaya think?
